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I Need You

May 24, 2019

Truth came to visit me today. It arrived unexpectedly through my open window coming in gently with the cool breeze of the early morning wind flowing freely from the west.

It brought me courage and a much needed dose of honesty so that I could finally admit what I’ve been holding back all this time since you left my side. I’ve been unable to admit that …


Like the moon needs the night sky glittered with stars in order to shine bright in all her glorious beauty and guide her children through the darkness of the late hours


Like the tree needs its strong roots that run deep and thick into the earth’s fertile womb feeding it life and strengthening its very existence against the forces of nature that come to test her resistance and question her might


Like the rosary beads need the strength of its string which holds them together through the years with the power of the Holy Spirit flowing through them answering prayers and providing miracles to those who dare to believe and ask in His name


Like this body needs the powerful beating of her heart in order to magically carry oxygen through her veins in her rich beautiful sweet blood reaching every cell from head to toe in order to remain alive, well and strong in her journey.


In spite of all the warnings against a woman needing a man who isn’t even hers because the very act of needing him brings about her greatest unwanted pain and inevitable demise…


Because my energy loves your energy incredibly so, my heart smiles largely simply at the thought of you, because my spirit calls out to you in the quiet of the deep night and my skin tingles even still at the memory of your powerful hands exploring every inch of my body.


Because I feel most woman in your loving arms, because my heart beats stronger and louder in unison with yours, because I never knew my soul could long so deeply and passionately for another calling out to you through space and time in spite of heartaches and disappointments wanting desperately to just feel you once again just to know that I’m still alive.

Always and Forever, I need you.

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2019


The Dream

October 15, 2018

The other night I had a dream…
I had been walking
through a sea of darkness and uncertainty
for what seemed like an eternity
I was afraid and alone, tired and worn.


As I came upon a winding pathway
the light shown softly through the trees
and in it’s beautiful glow I saw a man.
He was tall and strong
yet gentle and soft spoken,
his was a kind and familiar face
with beautiful dark eyes and brown skin.


In his presence I began to feel loves embrace…
That night I saw the face of hope
and immediately my spirit was lifted.
Faith wrapped its arms around me so tight
that it squeezed out my fears.
I leaned my head in and listened to the heartbeat of love
and in its sultry rhythm I felt reassurance and peace.
I woke up knowing everything was going to be amazing
and I had nothing to worry about.


Today as I looked into your eyes
I felt an incredible wave of joy overcome me
and your smile took my breath away.
As you put your strong arms around me
and I laid my head on your chest
I felt your strong embrace
as I listened to your heart beating
in a beautiful love song with my own…
I looked up at you and you kissed away my fears.
It was then that I realized my dream was a vision
or premonition of sorts.
In it I saw you and I
and the many beautiful moments
we will continue to share
as our love story unfolds.


I am not afraid.
I am not worried.
I am not alone
for even when you aren’t standing here
next to me,
still you are always with me.
Still and always I am yours
as you are mine.
Forever and a day.


Monica Garcia Saenz © 2018

Maybe In Another Lifetime

August 2, 2018

Maybe in another lifetime
we loved each other with such power
that it reached out across the barriers
of time and space into this lifetime
and once again brought us together
if only for a brief moment.

Maybe in another lifetime
we shared the kind of deep love
that makes anyone watching
ache to love and be loved with such
passion, power and excitement at just
the sight of me watching you, watching me
from a distance with a great desire
and insatiable hunger for one another.

Maybe in another lifetime
my heart skipped a beat at just the sight of you
while your smell sent my insides into a frenzy
and my lips longed for the sweet softness of yours
if you were away from me
for any amount of time.

Maybe in another lifetime
my skin tingled when it touched yours
and my body fit perfectly into
that warm space next to you
as we lay naked in my bed
spent and exhausted from hours
of passionately loving one other

Maybe, just maybe that’s why my fingers
tracing the lines and edges of your hands
arms and torso could somehow also feel the
strong curves and deep crevices of your
heart and soul simultaneously
and as I lay my head on your chest
listening to the soft sound of your heartbeat
I  could also hear the sounds of you soul
echoing in time intertwined in a melodic love song
softly flowing across the ages

Maybe it is why my eyes
immediately recognized you
as you walked in the door
captivating me with your presence
as I saw not only the beautiful man
you are today but also the many ages
spaces, faces and places
your spirit has lived, loved and
traveled in the many lifetimes before today

Maybe we stayed connected you and I
breaking the laws of life, gravity and time…
reaching out past that which was
and into that which is, here and now.
This great love once again pulling me
closer to you
feeling you
needing you
and longing for you
even as I write these lonely words…

Maybe in this lifetime
our paths will cross once again
and I will delightfully shower you
with my familiar love and affection
kissing every part of you
in a way that fills your heart with joy
and makes your skin smile with excitement

Maybe in another lifetime
my body and soul can once again melt into yours
in a powerful celebration of love,
pleasure and passionate ecstasy
that will be felt as waves of love
thoughout all eternity.

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2018


April 20, 2018

I love the sound of the word “beautiful”
coming from your lips with delicacy and ease,
so soft and sultry yet powerful and strong.

I love the way it rolls off your tongue
and into my ears is like the music
my heart has been waiting to hear
for an eternity or at least this lifetime.

My heart smiles and my skin tingles
at the very thought of you
and I think it’s my soul recognizing yours
from another lifetime together
where love reigned and happiness conquered all.

Welcome back my love, my heart is yours once again.

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2018

In the Clouds of Your Memory

June 28, 2012

I am here… sitting in the clouds of your memory
deeply engraved in the walls of your existence
imbedded in your very essence
recorded in the story of your life
loving you for all eternity…

Like a hidden spark of flame
a sudden rush of Love
or an expected opportunity
a moment waiting its birth in a near tomorrow
like a ray of sun brightening your day
like the hope of a marvelous dawn to come
or a promise of what will be

I am for you that inevitable road
that destiny carved in stone
the final destination stop on your life’s train
that wonderful direction already taken
a purchased ticket into your magical future

I wait impatiently through the eternities of time
wanting to leave my mark on your heart
needing to melt our bodies into one
and once again intertwine my being with yours
leaving my scent on your soul
and my smile on your skin

So that every time you feel
the strong beating of your enamored interior
you shall remember only me
and every time the scent of the familiar reaches you
you shall smell only me
and every time a soft breeze touches your skin
and makes you shudder from within
you shall feel only me

And it is then that you will know for sure
that it is my song that inspires the great pounding of your heart
and the powerful waking of your insides
and then you will know that it is not the sunrise that takes your breath away
but my soul that calls out to yours loudly through natures beauty
And then you will know that it is not the wind that is gently caressing you
because it is all that is mine softly touching all that is yours
through these invisible threads of love
in this amazing universe made for you and I

I am the unknown future that tastes of well recorded habits
our souls united forever
our destinies deliciously intertwined
our paths already crossed centuries ago
I am that which you have always known
and that which you feel in the present moment
now becoming that eternal being in your life
that cannot be erased with any amount of wanting

I am that which overcomes the raging storms
of the dreary daily doings
and remains steadfast and only yours
in spite of time
in spite of distance
in spite of doubts
in spite of fears
in spite of chaos
in spite of war and even
in spite of the uncertainties

I am here in the clouds of your memory…
the memory of your past,
your present and your future…
living amidst a blurry haze of cotton
in the clouds that have always been and
in those that are waiting to exist

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2012

Angels Among Us…

June 28, 2012

There are people in our journey through life
that very much resemble angels incarnated.
Their sole purpose seems to be to shine their
light so brightly that others may be able to see
and understand their own darkness
and in doing so they open their hearts
and lives to true joy and pure happiness.
Incredibly with this one example of
they are then able to allow God’s light
in their own life and slowly
they become a beacon of love as well.

If you look closely you can almost see
the flutter of their wings in the evening wind
as their light magically creates more light that in turn
releases the darkness of the world and heals its pain
from the inside out… one person at a time.

Have you seen an angel among us?
Amazingly the eyes are a window into the soul
and a smile is a glimpse into the heart of a human being.
There is where the angel resides quietly…
When we see both a glow in the eyes and love in a smile
it is true joy that embraces us at that moment
and it lingers with us for all eternity.

Sadly death makes us reflect upon our own life
as we are brutally faced with our own mortality.
What will we leave behind when we are gone?
What are we teaching with our lives today?
How will we be remembered?

But God creates miracles in everything…
death helps us see how valuable and precious life really is
and the passing of an angel among us is a wakeup call
to really live life NOW!
Our lives should not be wasted
on senseless and meaningless garbage
but rather lived with purpose, passion and to the fullest,
honoring our creator at every moment
and making Him proud to be our father.

There is an angel within you… have you seen it lately?

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2012

Life Lessons

March 12, 2012

I haven’t posted anything in a while – just thought I’d share this today. ENJOY and thanks for reading!

Life… Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson or to help you figure out who you are, or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be, possibly your roommate, neighbor, coworker, long-lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes in life, things may happen to you that seem horrible, painful, and unfair, but in reflection, you find that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. “If you want a rainbow, you have to put up with the rain.”

Everything happens for a reason, nothing by chance or by means of luck, it happens because it is meant to be. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity, all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road leading to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, yet dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet that will affect your life, will be the success and downfalls you experience though out life, they are who will help you create the person you will grow to become, even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are the most important experiences because, “Failure teaches success.”

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open you heart, how you must only give to the ones who are worthy of being loyal.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because in a way they are teaching you about how to love, have trust and about loyalty. Give them that chance to give and receive what they deserve for and from you. “Everything in life is temporary because everything changes, that’s why it takes great courage to love, knowing it might end anytime, but having the faith that it will last forever.”

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything you possibly can because that may be the only time in your life you will ever have that experience.

Meet new people you have never met before, talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen to what they have to say, it might teach you something valuable, but always remember who your true friends are, “A true friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words”.

Let yourself live, love, and break free, make no boundaries, for you can accomplish anything as long as your heart is into it. This is your life, you run the show! Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a special individual and there is no other out there the same as you. Believe in yourself, for it will be hard for others to believe in you. “If you don’t stand up for something, you will fall for anything”. You are in control and you can create your own life, so take chances, and go out and live it with absolutely no regret. “The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be”.

Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow will bring. Don’t let one moment pass because it could change you forever. Don’t ever fear life, because “What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger”. Learn a valuable lesson in each day that you live. “The rich person is not who has the most but who needs the least”.

Life is too short to take seriously, so remember to begin each day with a smile…”Never frown, you never know who might be falling in love with your smile.” Everyone who walks through your door will make you happy, some on the way in and some on the way out…but always remember to leave the door to your heart open because you never know what may come your way. Believe in Karma, because what comes around really does go around.

~Author Unknown


December 5, 2010

I don’t want to simply co-exist

in the mundane hours of this lonely journey

because I want to reach out

and magically find your hand to hold

I want to feel the warmth of your soul  

and revel in the magnificence of life in love


I don’t want to just survive

another dreadfully boring day

in this painful and sometimes ugly world

because what I really want is to

search for your gentle eyes

and find you waiting for me

I want to lose myself in your essence

and understand the greatness that love brings us

while we thrive in the beauty of this moment


I don’t want to sit idly by…

doing nothing but wasting away the years

while time passes me by slowly

because I want to emerge gloriously

into the great dawn of a new day

knowing that anything is possible

and that I can truly conquer all

as long as you’re here – next to me

loving me –  unconditionally

inspiring me – constantly

lifting me – when I am down

and guiding me into a better tomorrow


Monica Garcia Saenz © 2010

My Musical Wish – Perfect Poet

November 20, 2010

Thursday Poets Rally Week 33 Poem Post-Perfect Poet Award Acceptance


My Musical Wish

I wish I was musically gifted
I wish I could gracefully play
the piano with ease…

I wish my fingers
knew the notes of love
on those shiny black and white keys…

If I could
I would definitely play you a melody
of soft gentle sweetness
and never-ending beautiful love

I would write you a poetic song
that would slowly wrap your heart
in its sensual melodic notes
and whisper promises of
unconditional love in every tune

I would touch your heart
with my sultry song
I would move your soul
with my magical music

Oh If I was so lucky as to
be blessed with musical gifts
my love song would surely be for you!

Monica Garcia Saenz © 2010


This post is for Thursday Poets Rally Week 33 Poem Post.


I would like to nominate This Space Taken by ljm

That Lost Yesterday

November 20, 2010
Today your reflection appeared
in my mind so suddenly that it startled me
Your unexpected presence surprised
and overwhelmed me simultaneously
with a delightful mixture of long forgotten
but very intense feelings and emotions
I clearly felt the warmth of your smile
as I closed my eyes to take in your deliciously familiar scent
and then I gently pulled you out from that secret holding place
in the center of my soul where only you reside
At that moment your heart sat next to mine
and the loud sound of its powerful pounding gave me goose bumps…
I shuddered as I hugged myself
but if felt more like your arms around me
than my own
I slowly reminisced on thoughts of you
and I said your name out loud
just to break the silence
and delight in the sound of it again…
As if voicing your name to the wind
would really bring you back to my world
Then I stopped to recognized the value
of your presence in my life
while I relived the joyous moments you brought my way
feeling only gratitude for what was
and not lamenting what is no more…
And then I returned to my daily doings
Thinking that you would go back to where you are
So far away from me…
But you stayed there
standing to my left
warming my soul with heat of your breath
revitalizing my being with your laughter…
And loving me passionately
Just like you did in
That lost yesterday….
Monica Garcia Saenz © 2010
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